Idyllic Studies

happiness

  • A child, reading

    I am in first grade. It is summertime, and I’ve just come from outside. My skin is a russet brown, bruised and scabbed from days spent outdoors. In fact, it is still warm from my recent dance with the sun. I’m lying on my stomach in the doorway of our guest room. The door is…

  • A memory that was had

    I look at him,But he is not who I see. It is a memory that was had,But it does not have me. I can look at it,But I must let it be.If I do that, then I can be free. It is a memory that was had,But it does not have me.

  • Cradled by solitude

    I am on a bus, and it is night. Great adventures await me at my destination, and great adventures I have left behind, but now, it is time to rest. The passengers around me sleep, and I am alone. Music fills my ears, and without hearing, I feel. At this moment in my journey, I…

  • Finding peace at Dane Hill Manor

    With the dramatic, rolling hills, placid lake, and grazing horses around me, thoughts swell inside me and then quiet in rolling waves that I let sweep me away.

  • My hope, for you and for me

    I hope that one day, probably many, many years into the future, you will remember me with all the clarity in the world.

  • It is quiet, and I am alone.

    In many ways, I think I will never understand what happened to me—what he did to me. I’ll never be able to reconcile it. I’ll never be able to make sense of it. The only answer is for me to move on. To stop caring. To let go. There is a cliff—I’ve fallen off of…